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Beyond the Pale
04:08
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I want to be taken by surprise
I’m so tired of knowing what
is gonna come next…
I want the horns in the square to play
The crooked moon to pull me apart
Just when I think I’ve got it all
figured out…
You find a way to play with my heart
I can’t explain
Not even through the keys,
I want to be on my knees
I want to be the breeze
Blowing through the curtains
In the middle of the night
When you most need it
I want to be the autumn
In the open sky
And learn to sail
Without knowing why
I want to find a way
to say…
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2. |
Seriously Though
03:49
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Just when I’d given up all hope
Of ever getting what I thought I was waiting for
Just when I thought you’d abandoned me
And left me here to curse your name
And clench my tiny fists against the rain
Crying I’m stranded
You send me wings
I’m gonna let ‘em unfurl
I’m a superhero
I’m rising up above it all
Rescuing myself, you watch me
I’m swooping in to rescue myself
I am my own savior
Don’t need no one else
Don’t need no knight in shining armor
Just when I’d given up holding on
And let my body tumble through the air
You send me wings
I’m gonna let ‘em unfurl
Cuz I’m a superhero
I’m rising up above it all
Rescuing myself, you watch me
I’m swooping in to rescue me
I am my own savior
Don’t need no knight in shining armor
I’m gonna use the wings you gave me
I am my own savior
You watch me
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3. |
What It's Like
03:27
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It’s like hearing again an old song you used to know
Barely remembered, a shadow from long ago
Now sounding new, as if when you heard it
The first time, you didn’t know how to form words
Or you didn’t know chords, didn’t know what a note was
Or like you were deaf, and suddenly hearing vibrations
It’s like driving a car, it’s dark and it’s raining
And you’ve lost your way – you’re intoxicated –
You’ve run out of gas and you’re sure that you’re stranded
You fall asleep, and upon awakening
Looking around, you suddenly see that you’re liberated
you’re liberated
It’s like hearing about Yosemite Valley
You’ve drawn it in crayons, you’ve seen Ansel Adams
But you feel ancient, and also so very old
Like what’s the use of it
In your dark tunnel, but when you come through
Your breath’s taken from you
You can’t believe it – it’s so beautiful –
Love is a miracle
Lifting your burdens from you
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4. |
Forever After
03:29
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You don’t want me as I am
As I could be, without any man
Without anyone trying to define me
Or complete me
Always forever after, kind of
Anyhow it’s untenable
Especially at its best-est
Not last-able, transitional, transactional
Unsatisfiable
Is that what you want?
Always forever after?
Who wants that kind of life, babe?
I don’t wanna be your wife, babe
So I guess this is a breakup
I’m gonna shake my moneymaker
I hope you find another taker
Maybe I’ll see you later
Oh honey I know there’s a finger
for you to put your ring on
Until the end of time
But it isn’t mine
Oh woe, woe
Is that all there is to living?
I want you here next to me
I want you next to me
Oh mercy me
The way you touch me
Oh mercy me
Your breath against my body
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5. |
Ghost Horses
03:17
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In the gloaming the wind shuddered the dust across the barren plain as if it were a living thing, so that from afar it might have been mistaken for water, for the ocean under which it had once lain after monumental icebergs had cracked and tumbled in thunderous convulsions, as though the seams between this world and the next were being wrenched asunder by the claws of an invisible leviathan before there were ears to register the tumult.
You know you were moving
But you don’t know what creature you were
It was something wild and free
And it’s in you somewhere
It’s still in there
It’s like a spirit
But it has no form
It wants to break out
And without it what would living be?
A thing devoid of mystery
Baby I didn’t rise up from the ashes
To play dead, so let it come
Let it come without explanation
Let it come without rhyme or reason
Let it take me
I surrender to it
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6. |
Let's Pretend
03:46
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Let’s pretend it’s unexpected
It shakes your bones and makes your mouth wet
Unlike anything ever has been
Let’s pretend it’s meant to be
And it’s gonna last forever
All the way until death and
It’s not based on anything
I’m gonna put my sneakers on and
Shake my booty
I’m gonna go out on my own
I’m gonna go out dancing like I’m
Choosing… to be… to be
Let’s pretend I asked to be here
Like a morning glory coiling
I sprang & tangled my roots
Around whatever lay in my way
I’m gonna put my sneakers on and
Shake my booty
I’m gonna go out dancing
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7. |
Reckoning
03:48
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Is this the day of reckoning?
The day the saints come marching in
Shining their spotlights on my
Fantasy of what I thought I wanted
You to be… (will I ever get out)
Did I mistake you for someone?
Have I invented a fiction?
Once again unnoticed
It’s all falling apart
And I know I’ll never get out
Could I ever get out
Ever get out, ever get out of
(in my mind)
I think you oughta know that
Is how I have made it
I have become trapped in
My imagination
But it’s a nice place
I wish you could come in
Cuz it’s where I’ll be
And I’ll never get out of
This world
Alive
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8. |
Not in the Movies
03:34
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I’m standing at the edge of an openness
I’m all alone in a crowd
I’m in a crowded hall
And everyone’s expecting me to say something profound
But I don’t think I can do it
I don’t think I can do it
I don’t feel like I’m supposed to
I’m not who you think I am
I’m too little, I’m too young, I don’t look good wearing black
But here I am
Here I am
It’s not like how it is in the movies
I’m not crying at the right times
And I can’t follow the conversation
And everything’s in black and white
And the soundtrack is muted
And the time is out of sync with my mind
And everything’s in black and white
It’s not like how it is in the movies
I’m not crying at the right times
And I’m suffocating
And I don’t think I can do it
Without you here
Without you here with me
I don’t think I can do it
Without you here
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9. |
The Trees
03:49
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Tell me more about the light
What’s happening in the movie
What’s happening in the scene
Are you running toward something
or away from something
What are you running from
Is it dark or is it light
Is it raining
What’s the weather like
Is this the part where you break down crying
Is this the part where you make a decision to begin again
Is this the part where you let something go
Is this the part where you get a phone call telling you your apartment burned down
Is this the part where you’re set free
Is this the part where you jump
Off the cliff and instead of falling you begin to rise up and levitate like in the dream you used to have when you were just a little girl and you would lie in bed in New Hampshire in mid-August after watching shooting stars from a reclining chair on the lawn and through the open window through the screen window you could hear the trees
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10. |
Liner Notes
03:16
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I’m the liner notes that got crossed out
I’m the part no one knows about
I’m on the cutting room floor
Where I was before
I’m an afterthought at the end of your
Day… But I wanna take up space
I wanna sing in the rain
I wanna tap dance on
The grave of that storm rolling in
Raging in your mind
And then disappearing again
I’m a gentle rain, a breeze drifting in
And then disappearing again
But I wanna take up space
I wanna sing in the rain
I wanna tap dance on the grave
Of that sad story
I’m burying today
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Fellwalker Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Cynthia Hopkins & James Lavino bring you music from above the tree line.
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